hotmtlnovel Chapter 278 Peace of mind
Chapter 278 Peace of mind
Let life be as gorgeous as summer flowers, and let death be as quiet and beautiful as autumn leaves.
This is Tagore's perception of death in "The Birds".
It means that life should be as beautiful and brilliant as flowers blooming in summer, and death should pass away quietly like autumn leaves. Don't feel sad and lament about it.
But Xu Sheng couldn't do it.
He couldn't help but watch Alice die on the bed and there was nothing he could do!
He spent a day frantically searching for Zod. After learning the location of Zod's laboratory in the suburbs from Dudarinnov, he went there to look for Zod, only to see the ruins of the laboratory and everything inside. They were all engulfed in flames and nothing could be found.
Xu Sheng expanded the search scope to the surrounding area, and finally found slight traces of a fight two kilometers away from the laboratory, and found Zod's hair on the ground.
He knew that it was almost impossible to find Zod. Even if he could be found in the future, Alice couldn't wait any longer.
He wandered aimlessly on the streets of Moko, looking at everyone on the street who looked like Zod.
He stopped a robbery and nearly beat the robber to death on the street.
He went to drink, and his fierce aura scared away several men and women who wanted to come forward to communicate.
Xu Sheng didn't know what else he could do. His reversal technique had no effect, and the long-planned method was in vain.
His brain, which was groggy from alcohol, was beating like crazy, and suddenly he remembered that he still had the permission approved by Dudalinnov to go to the Devil's Manual.
Maybe it’s enough to evolve the ability again!
He returned to Kberg, broke into the Demon Manual like a bandit, and swallowed the demon corpses that tasted like dirty rags without any scruples like last time.
The staff member Mingwei stood aside tremblingly, wondering why this inhuman guy is here again! Minister Angel had the foresight to transfer some of them in advance, otherwise these rare demon specimens would have disappeared.
When Chi Ke found Xu Sheng, he saw Xu Sheng sitting down next to the wall, surrounded by grotesque stumps and internal organs. In Xu Sheng's hand, he was holding an unsightly piece of meat that had been eaten.
"Oh my God! Dude, what are you doing?"
This was the first time Chi Ke saw such a scene, and he said as if he was meeting Xu Sheng for the first time: "I know you are a test subject, is this a side effect of yours?"
Xu Sheng's voice was hoarse and he answered the question inappropriately: "What are you doing here?"
Only then did Chi Ke remember what he was here for, and his tone became cryptic: "Alice said, I want to talk to you, otherwise I won't have a chance in the future."
When Xu Sheng heard this, he raised his head, with a clear look in his eyes.
He cleaned up. After all, he smelled of blood and it was really hard to see anyone.
It was already afternoon by the time the two arrived at Amiya Hospital.
After Xu Sheng entered, Chi Ke raised his eyebrows at Vera and others and whispered: "A new Chinese restaurant has opened downstairs, does anyone want to go?"
Sashaman immediately raised his hand: "Add me."
Vera wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes and choked: "Me too, I will go too..."
Maxim glanced at Xu Sheng. In fact, he wanted to stay here with Boss Xu Sheng, but after seeing the faint threat in Chi Ke's eyes, he said sincerely: "I'll go too..."
Takagi silently patted Xu Sheng's shoulder and walked out. Alice said before he left: "Uncle Zhenyi, don't forget what I said."
Takagi nodded vigorously and left the ward.
The ward suddenly became much empty. Except for the two patients who were still sleeping next to them, only Xu Sheng and Alice looked at each other.
Although he and Alice had only met yesterday, they felt like they were reunited after a long absence. He stared at her, some emotions surging in his eyes, but finally closed his eyes. He didn't know what to say and remained silent. It was like a steelyard, weighing him down so much that he couldn't breathe.
As if aware of the overly fiery gaze in the room, he raised his eyelids and collided with the gaze on the hospital bed.
Alice seemed to be recovering well, her skin was much rosier, and her complexion looked brighter. The look of a flashback made Xu Sheng's face even more ugly.
"What's wrong?"
In a crisp voice, just like the first time they saw him, Xu Sheng pursed his lips and said, "It's okay, just a little sad."
Alice smiled and said, "There's no need to be sad. People are bound to die. At least I wasn't eaten by any disgusting demon. It's good to be able to say goodbye to everyone and leave without leaving any regrets."
"Do you really have no regrets? You are still so young, there are still many things you have not experienced, there are so many beautiful things you have not experienced, and there are so many people who love you and care about you, just die like this , how could there be no regrets..."
Xu Sheng seems to want to persuade Alice to live. Just like the protagonist of the novel, a few words can arouse people's desire for life, and then a glimmer of life appears for the protagonist to fight for, and finally rushes to the last moment to save the life. Save people.
But reality is often cruel, just like now.
As a person who does not belong to this world, Xu Sheng actively accepts this world that is completely different from his previous life. He uses the abilities given to him by the world to play in the world and be the butcher who kills others and takes away their lives. He also It’s a lot of fun to be in a career I’ve never had before.
Neither respects others nor respects oneself.
However, they were obviously a group of people whose lives were full of suffering, but they became his friends and accepted him who had gone astray. They understood the meaning of his life and gave him the warmth of family affection in this other world.
But he had no way to save them, not even one person.
Mazmi died in front of him, and Alice was in front of him. Life was gradually disappearing, and he was powerless.
He scolded Takagi for being incompetent, and he was not an incompetent person.
Alice's smile gradually faded, her eyes wandered, and her words became more serious: "There must be regrets. How can people not have regrets."
Her eyes flickered, and a layer of mist appeared in the corners of her eyes: "Xu Sheng, I have never owned anything, nor have I been anyone's only one. I don't even have any goals in life. My life has always been following the shadows. , I avenge my parents who were killed by demons, avenge my adoptive father who died on the battlefield, and avenge those dead comrades..."
"I don't know what the meaning is, and I can't answer what Uncle Zhenyi once asked me, what will I do after revenge? I don't know anything. I just want to do this well first and think about it later, but I'm afraid, I'm afraid I’m afraid of losing again. I really don’t want to lose anymore..."
Alice was already bursting into tears: "I'm sorry, Xu Sheng, I have been using you, using your power to fill the fear in my heart. I have been using your power, thinking that you will never die. I just want to be with you." If you form a team and be with you, I won't have to worry about losing anymore, and I will get that peace of mind. I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."
Xu Sheng faced Alice, who was already crying. His lowered hands trembled. After a moment of silence, he said, "Is there anything else you want to do?"